I've "known" for a long time. The first time I had the thought that "I wish I was a girl" I was 8 years old. Growing up I've always assumed that everyone wanted to be the other gender. Turns out, not true! I got good at compartmentalizing those feelings, and squishing them deep down inside. I joke that I pushed them deep down inside and hoped to one day, die of old age. It's a terrible joke, but that's how I felt.
Over this summer I took a sabbatical. The trip was amazing, but driving 8000 miles gives a person time to think. Those feelings began to bubble back up. In September, I admitted to myself that I'm a girl. That I have been pretending to be a boy for my entire life.
Honestly, I'm scared. It's not a friendly world for trans people, but this is who I am. I'm tired of pretending. I want to be the real me. So I'm starting on this journey. I have a wonderful support group. And while not everyone that I have told has been amazing, the general reception has been overly accepting and supportive.
I guess it's time to re-introduce myself: Hi, I'm Maddie, a woman with she/her pronouns. 👋🏻
What can you do to support me?
- Use my name, and pronouns. If you mess up, it's OK to correct yourself and move on.
- Gender dysphoria is hard to explain. If you don't understand it, please try and believe me. You may not see a woman yet when you look at me, but I am. This isn't some elaborate trick.
- I'm an open book. If you have questions feel free to ask. All I need from you is empathy and an open mind.